Tracklist

1. Chatterbox
2. Flashlights
3. Yellow Handed
4. Too Tight to Chill, Too Still to Rock
5. Where You Are…
6. Retrospecks II
7. Like a Villain
8. 191
9. Prophecies
10. Realizations (Autumn 2029)

Chatterbox

Remember when we were the best?
Well I don’t, well I don’t, no
Remember when you bought a bulletproof vest?
Well you know, hit-men only aim for the chest

But I jest, I just wanna help you
Never cleaning up your carpets
Never leaving your apartment

Remember when we were kids?
And I was younger than I seemed
Because of my anxieties

Why don’t you talk more?
You’re being too loud they said sardonically
I grow weary of your comedy

Why don’t you talk more?
You’re being too loud they say sardonically
I grow weary of your company
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Flashlights

Casper, don’t cast away my coming soon
Arriving in July, I’ll march for springtime

Recall me into the red sky
Beset the setting sun, west-wise
Best to run, goodbye flashlight

Darling, don’t be so rash you’ll see me someday
So be patient, wait and turn to gray
You don’t know what it’s like to be lonesome all your life

Recall me into the red sky
Beset the setting sun, west-wise
Best to run, goodbye flashlight

It’s my bite, my sting
You’re just resting
It’s my life, my weeds
Don’t tell me how to be
Don’t tell me how to be

Relieve me into the sun-soaked sky
Don’t go running through my fields, looking for mines
My mind is on you all the time

Recall me into the red sky
Beset the setting sun, west-wise
Best to run, goodbye flashlight

It’s my bite, my sting
You’re just resting
It’s my life, my weeds
Don’t tell me how to be
Don’t tell me how to be
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Yellow Handed

My will is tired
And my thrills are tied tight, tight, tight, tight
Tonight, I fare well

My vines are waning
And my sides are drawn
Hand me all that you regret
You’ve caught me yellow handed
To call me home, to call me

Well my will is elder
And my might retires
Please guide me home, I’m so tired
Please steer me home, I’m so tired
I’m so tired

Well my mind has withered
Once filled, now runs dry, dry, dry, dry
And I, I consign

My time is ticking
And my hands are clocked
Tell me all that we forget
I’ve caught you golden handed
To take me home, to take me

Well my will is elder
And my might retires
Please guide me home, I’m so tired
Please steer me home, I’m so tired
I’m so tired
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Where You Are…

The way is dark without the stars
The city lights are fading out
The western sun will sigh and in the east the Easterlings reply
Hello there love, how do you feel?
I just can’t tell if you’re for real

My days are brighter, trees grow taller
Hearts not so contrite
The colors of the world now shine and in the east the sun will rise
And western lights will fall a dim
I’ll sit and watch with you my dear
Oh damn, we’ll have a real good time and in the north the stars reply
Hello there love, I love you so
Under the moon, you’ll start to glow

(Days are brighter, I’m a fighter
Take this fire and light up the night sky)

This city always regarded me
With a lack of conscious authority
This is where I grew up
But it’s sure as hell not where I’m from

Where you are
Is where I’m going
Where the sun meets the stars
That’s where I’m going

The planets wait for day to pass
The city streets all shine like glass
I cannot wait for summer nights
We’ll stare into the velvet skies
The stars like candles, moon is waxing
My love never waning
Take your time and walk on slowly
Pave the way, tomorrow morning

Where you are
That’s where I’m going
Where the sun meets the sky
That’s where I’m going

Where you are
That’s where I’m going
Where the sun meets the stars
That’s where I’m going
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Retrospecks II

Come on, girl, don’t make me wait to meet again
You said we’d meet again
You said you’d be here when I was

When I was greater and worse
You gave me more than I deserved
Now I’m just begging for you to reconvene with me

(Woah)

You said that I’d be sorry, well now I am
You said that I’d be hollowed, well now I am
You said that I’d be harrowed, well here I am

I’ve become cynically, bitterly cold
Warm me up, thaw my icy core
Eighteen winters worth of snow have froze this soul

All your best memories must be retained from earlier days
Well blood still flows through my veins but like a river the waters change
I’ve no more time for games, I’m supposed to act older now
Wise and learned, it’s awfully horrid
Oh, tell me it’s vile when they see you smile

I’ve become hopelessly, verily cold
Warm me up, thaw my icy core
Eighteen winters worth of snow have froze this soul

I’ve become cynically, bitterly cold
Warm me up, thaw my icy core
Eighteen winters worth of snow have froze this soul
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191

Softly sweltering under fluorescent lights
Like kites stuck in a cheerless charmless sky
I hate this room, I’d fight it if I could
Good God, these lyrics are shitty
Bad God, my mind is so dirty

How can I be inspired when I’m burning under the fire of higher learning?
(And I am yearning!)
Why can’t I just retire?
Does my skin eclipse my age?
Are my eyes glazed?

191 is my number
191 is my sign
It’s what it’ll say on my doorway, say on my nameplate, say on my hearse
Oh, it’s worse than I made it seem
I’m in a dream
Ill sing so you can feel at home
Ill grind these tendons to the bone

How can I be inspired when I’m burning under the fire of higher learning?
(And I am yearning!)
Why can’t I just retire?
Does my skin eclipse my age?
Are my eyes glazed?

191 is my number
191 is my sign
It’s what it’ll say on my doorway, say on my nameplate, say on my breast
Oh, I’m less than I make believe
But you’re all just like me
I’ll sing so you don’t feel alone
I’ll grind these tendons to the bone
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Prophecies

Last night, I was dreaming
Last night, I had dreamt that my head hit the ground
That my head hit the ground

And I know I’m gonna die, I don’t need to hear it
And I know I’m gonna die, I just didn’t wanna know when

Last night I was fortunate to pierce my own fortune
They said that my head hits the ground
That my head hits the ground

Last night I was so fortunate
That I pierced the hide of my own damn fortune
It said my head hits the ground
That my head hits the ground

And I know I’m gonna die, I don’t need to hear it
And I know I’m gonna die, I just didn’t wanna know when
(1, 2, 3, 4)

And I saw my mother cry, saw my father cry over me
Over me, over me
Saw my mother cry, saw my father cry over me
Over me
And I said no, and I said no, and I said no
And I screamed no

Saw my mother cry, saw my father cry
In my sleep I see them crying as I’m dying in the months before the snow
And I say no, and I say no
And I said no, and I screamed no

Do you know what it’s like to go to sleep every night and see your name carved in stone?
I bet you don’t

Or printed in ink in the morning news?
Too bad everyone lives in computers
It’s futile, I know; but I’m too damn connected
I’d give it a rest but this respite is pressing me
Blessing me, kissing me, sending me messages
Converging in autumn to give life some context
Compounding like interest, the gift of ill-knowledge
Demolishing illness with death as my hostage

It’s me don’t you see I’m humanity’s life vest
Abolishing sadness and curing the calloused
I’m lighting the blackness of kids on their last legs

The breadth of my goodness knows not of restriction
My diction seems strict but I swear I’m kind hearted
A hearth that burns fear and leaves nothing but art
Is this real, is this real?
I don’t feel that I’m here
But I hear I’ve been robbed of my massive appeal

Flaunt your gaunt jawline as I call you highness
Well minus the temper, your sick soul is mine
I’m a regular secular prince of all Canaan
There’s no gods or goddesses
I’m the most modest
So honest, it pains me to take on this title
But I promise to reign till my comet is fatal
It’s natal and free
Oh, the rarest of charity
Your hero is here and his first name is me

Most nights I have visions of an oiled and painted demise
And my head hits the ground
Yeah, my head hits the ground

Most nights I have visions of an oiled and painted demise
And my head hits the ground
Yeah, my head hits the ground

(In the…)
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Realizations (Autumn 2029)

(In the) Fall of 29’
I’m going down
My sneakers are torn and so full of leaves
Don’t follow me

And while my comet’s got time yet
I’ll become a comic kid
Leading the world ahead
With my upcoming memories
I’ve got no enemies now
I’m the cross inside the crowd

Fall of 29’
I’m going down
My needles are brown and falling off my boughs

Invisible, as a god should be
Don’t you dare worship me
Hey there girl isn’t he the one that saved your baby boy
Oh no, I’ve been found out
It’s not what I wanted
I’m the man with the India rubber head
Come to kiss the grave I’m standing in?

Please don’t applaud
It’s just my job
I’ve been employed to be your god
Please don’t pursue, it’s just no use
Nothing feels as good as having nothing to lose

I’ll rescue you from harm, just call me Jehovah one time
I’ll save you all from hell, just call my name when you’re scared
I’m lusting for you to know that your soul rests with me in my arms
The church is burning down
Dowse the house in the holy water that spews from my mouth

(I am the sun
I’m what you’re orbiting around
Get on the ground, get on the ground
I’m the alpha, I’m the omega
It starts with me and it ends with me)

I’m not the one you should be orbiting around
Get off the ground, get off the ground

I’m not the alpha, not the omega
But neither are you, neither are you
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